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In a recent conversation with my sister, she told me something her mother use to tell her.

Let’s say you want a new car. Something more sporty, or more functional..bigger..smaller.. However, there are papers, old bottles, trash, stale food, and mail with stains all over the seats of your current vehicle. You haven’t washed it in weeks. You’ve been praying, thinking happy thoughts a wishing for a new car, but nothing is happening.


Because, God can’t bring something new and shiny into your life until you can prove that you can take care of the old stuff first. How can he bring you a new car when you can’t take care of the old one?

This is my life.

I’m a left-handed, uber creative, 20 something, Gemini….. If that wasn’t enough to be stacked against me, I also run my own business where I have no help.

I’m crazy stressed due to a lot of things, and I have wished, prayed and tried to remain positive, thinking that things would turn around. They aren’t. Why? My soul is sad, my heart hurts and emotionally I’m unstable.

I know that God can’t give me the life I deserve until I can control the life I have in front of me.

So, I’m taking a step way back. I have projects I need to finish and then I am regrouping to make my life better on my own terms.

I have several opportunities in the upcoming months that will be amazing… Its just a matter of getting there.

I will actively be trying to remove the angry/sad/mad/worried posts from Facebook and I will not continue to post in that manner. I know it hinders me from moving forward and also makes me seem more unstable.

I realize that many people feel like I lack direction, and that I seem all over the place.

The truth is, I am.

However, I am the happiest when I am doing several different things at once. It may seem confusing, but I have a plan. I am passionate about all things and I truly love life and people.

One day you will see all that.

Please also remember that I am 27, and trying to find my place in this world. Please think back to when you were at this age.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope you so not mistake my upcoming silence for lack of interest or care as that is not the case. Often times I care too much.

Please do not mistake my silence for lack of caring or interest as that is not the case.

Have a good night. Thanks for reading this.

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RawArtists Showcase – Panorama

Panorama Show - Raw Artists Ashton Miyako

NOTICE: There are only 4 more days to buy tickets for the RawArtists Showcase!!

I have been working on creating an entirely new line for this show and I couldn’t be more excited. But first, let me tell you more about what we’ve got going on:

Date: Thursday, June 26, 2014

Location: Stereo Live (Houston, TX)

Time: 7:30 – 12a

Cost: $15 per ticket  – Buy them here





What I get for being a “RawArtist”:

Participating RAW artists receive:

  • A profile portfolio on RAWartists.org, upload pics, videos, MP3s and more information on yourself and your work. (reserved only for RAW artists)
  • Promotion on our localized social media outlets
  • Placement in the RAW Showcase Event (a showcase with 500-800+ attendees)
  • An on-camera video interview, edited into a professional video that can be used to tell the world who you are (examples: http://www.youtube.com/RAWartistsTV)
  • Professional head shots and photos of your work, collection, performance, band or whatever you happen to be presenting (also great for portfolios, social media or websites)
  • A free showcase: Once you have showcased in your city and completed your ticket commitment, you can showcase in any other city (within a year of your first showcase) out-of-state FOR FREE! Yep, we want you to keep your work moving. Have your art seen or heard in London, Austin, Minneapolis, Los Angeles or even Sydney!
  • Complimentary admission into any RAW show +1 guest, forever
  • RAWards eligibility at the end of the season. This is our annual indie arts awards season where 9 national winners are honored and receive huge career building prizes like gallery placement, meetings with record labels, and placement in boutiques, etc. If you’ve been selected, you’re automatically in the running.
  • I AM INDIE Blog: We also work really hard to get you advice from the experts on different facets of the creative professional world
  • RAWk Wall: We bring you exclusive deals, opportunities, competitions, discounts and more…
  • We have strategic partnerships with organizations, companies and industry players to continue to bring more opportunities to the forefront

My Idea for Panorama:

It would be impossible for me to explain where I am going without telling you where my thoughts and dreams linger.

I am to my core… an independent designer. I believe in community. I believe in building a future together, and I believe in following dreams without selling out. I never dream of being rich and famous (thought, don’t get me wrong… I wont rule it out) I just want to be happy. That might beg you to ask… well what makes you happy? I am the happiest when I am designing clothing for women that fits amazingly. I love to see how my dresses light up the faces of the wears and boost their confidence. Women with confidence can and WILL change the world. I will always do what I can to help them get there.. obviously through amazing dresses.

I have been thinking for a while about HOW I could partner with my local community here in Houston. It’s a large city, with lots of people and no one seems to be concerned with a local fashion designer trying to change her community. Then I remembered this fantastic woman I had met, Maria Cummings. I met her through a previous job, and I can tell you that we are soul sisters. Somehow her soul just knows when mine is having a hard time digesting new information, dealing with the daily stressors of being an independent business owner, the silliness of interns and she really understands my creative mind. I am, in fact… my own worst nightmare. She gets it, she get’s me.. and she keeps pushing me forward. I am so very lucky to have her.

A few months back she was mentioning to me that she was finally going to start a non-profit. For years this woman has been in the trenches digging and begging for help. She works side by side with people who have fallen on to hard times, or those coming out of bad situations. She helps find them a place to live through Start of Hope, helps get their furniture through the furniture bank, and helps get them clothing through donated clothing from her clients. For a more than just a people looking to go back to school, she has even paid out of pocket for meningitis shots. She stands by the philosophy, “Everyone deserves a second chance”. She pours her heart and soul into each person, for as they grown in live, she growth them them.. step by step.

Now, I have fallen on a hard time MANY times… I am young.. I am inexperienced in some ways, and overly experienced in others. I react quickly to certain things and I have to pay the price for my darting tongue often.  Maria has been a life coach to me for over the past year, and I owe it to her, and to my community to give back.

There is where the upcoming show comes into play.

She has allowed me to go through the bags of clothing  and to choose whatever I want to create new items. For me this means that I am not spending out of pocket expenses on material, with no guarantee that it will even sell (which means I’m negative in my business), I am also forced to get back to my roots, and above all else.. I have to learn to be creative again.

Repurposed, recycled and upcycled clothing can be a challenge. It’s difficult to envision what a leather jacket can be turned into.. or even a hospital gown. However for me.. it’s a transformation… a rebirth, and it’s exactly what I need.

I am going through my own transformation, and the show will be a symbol of what I am going through. Taking something old and worn… then breathing new life into it.

I plan to show the clothing on the runway with before pictures above the models walking down the runway. I am working with a local music artists to have her perform during the show while the models walk. We will be playing a video before the show to show where Amazing Grace Charities as come, as well as Ashton Miyako Designs.

I’m excited… it’s emotional.. and I just want to pour my heart and soul in to it.

I hope that you will come see the show. If you do, you will get a chance to meet me (if you haven’t already) and to also meet Maria and her business assistant and partner, Matthew. They are both amazing people!

If you can’t make it, but you are interested in supporting Amazing Grace Charities, here is how you can!


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Happy Fathers Day to EVERYONE

When I think of Fathers day… I don’t always think of Dad.

I grew up with my father not a part of my life. Not necessarily because he didn’t want to be, but because my mother moved us to Alaska and then California.

During this time I grew up not with one father, but many fathers. I’ve had many mentors in my life that have help shape who I am as a person. Here are just a few:

To my mother – Happy Fathers Day. You had to fill both roles and I know it wasn’t easy. I know that being a single mom is not easy for anyone and you tried the best that you could. We’ve had up’s and down’s and I am proud that you have grown as a person, that you are in a successful relationship and that you are continually learning to love unconditionally.

To Eric, Judy and Chris – You 3 are the best thing that could have ever happened to my life. I cannot express how much I truly care for each of you. You have been there every step of the way and for that I am truly grateful.


To Matt, the love of my life – I love the way you love our dog. I’ve seen you with your cousins children and you’ve proven to me many times over how much of an amazing father you will be. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you. You are my dream come true. P.S. Happy 2yr to baby. We made it! Here’s to 50 more!

To Bell, Amber, Jason, Ana, Ryan, Robyn, Wayne, Peg, Lisa, Reid, Bob, Mike, Trish, Louise, and Grandpa and to the rest of Matt’s family that I might have missed – Thank you for showing me the true values of family. Thank you for supporting me in all that I do, and for accepting me not only into your family, but a part of your lives as well. I love you all.

Thank you to my sister, her hubby and her kids. Thank you for truly loving me through thick and thin. Thank you for reaching out without cause or reason. Thank you for taking notice of my accomplishments in life and for picking me up off the ground when I have fallen.

Thank you to my Utah family!- you accepted me as family before I was ready to accept myself. It’s as if I have known you all my whole life. Thank you for giving back to me when I couldn’t give back to myself. Thank you for continually checking up on me, you always hit at just the right time.

Thank you to Maria, Matthew and Amazing Grace Charities for helping to inspire me every day. For helping me find a way to give back to my community and for reminding me that selfless and selfish sometimes have to go hand in hand. Know when to help others, know when to ask for help, and know when you need to set something down and come back later. God is so good.

To all of my kumu’s, aunties, hula sisters/brothers, and to all of our supporters – thank you sooooo much. You’ve given me a huge reason to make Houston my home and I couldn’t be happier. I’m so lucky to have met you all, you are the highlight of my week.


Lastly, my father, my step mother, my step sisters, my aunties and my grandparents from another mother. Plus my uncle John and his wife Cris- Thank you for helping me to look within myself to decide what was best for me. Thank you for continually challenging me to become a better person for not only myself, but my relationships with others and my customers. I owe my sincere determination to be on top to all of you. Thank you for always pushing me. I am forever grateful.

Here’s to you single moms , single dads, foster parents, adoptive parents, god parents, and to anyone who has ever influenced a child in a positive way. It takes a village to raise a child, and you are shaping the future. Keep on keepin on. You are appreciated in every way.

I’m sure I have missed so many people, I’m so sorry. Know that you do mean a ton to me… But typing on my phone has me drawing a blank.

Happy Fathers Day To Everyone!


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