What is it about ME?

There is a chance that by reading the above title you are thinking this is going to be a whine session about my life.

You….. are partly correct and partly COMPLETELY WRONG.. but first you were correct.

I just have one question…. which may come as a series of questions in a moment.

Why do I annoy myself so much? I literally feel like I am driving myself insane, which means I must drive others insane as well.

I lose motivation in the blink of an eye. I never know what I want (too many choices). Once I do pick out what I want I have no patience to wait for it to happen. I’m a dreamer. I’ve got big ideas and I want them all to happen right now. When I am forced to follow the dreams of someone else, I fall into a pit of self loathing and I just splash around in it until another deadline hits and I need to pull myself out. I want to do what I want, in a way that makes myself and others happy. I do not want to conform.

Is it because I am a girl? Is it because I am a Gemini, or Left Handed… or a Cali girl suck in a beachless town? Is it because I am creative?.. I hear creative minds are the worst to deal with. Maybe it’s a little of all those things????

Or perhaps…. what’s even worse.. It’s just me.

LET ME BE HAPPY UNIVERSE!!

I work my ass off and I try to please everyone… haven’t I earned up enough karma points to give me what I want?

Top 10 List:

  1. Sell the Mini
  2. Buy a new car (cheap, 4 dr, reliable)
  3. Finish paying bills.. between IRS and medical I need 5k
  4. FIX MY FUCKING SKIN…… I mean the older I get the worse my skin gets. I’ve finally gotten myself into a place where my weight doesn’t bother me.. my skin though.. WTF
  5. Expand my business, find an investor, open up a boutique/event space. I have a great idea for how to increase local business, community outreach and to make money for everyone. EcoLocalFriendly BEETCHS!
  6. Travel, find amazing fabrics and inspiration. Meet people.. make friends everywhere.
  7. Spend more time exploring new things with Matt and Isis
  8. Become a better hula dancer. Be more dedicated, thoughtful and dance with passion
  9. Find myself and then get lost in creativity again.
  10.  Read more, spend less time hunched over a sewing desk

After all that marriage, house, kids… blah.. all of that later.

Truly I want a successful business. I’m tired of struggling. I understand that your 20’s this is exactly what you are suppose to be doing.. but my my. they don’t tell you how exhausting it is.

I lied… this is all about me whining about my life.. but you’ve made it this far. so thanks.

rant over.

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2 thoughts on “What is it about ME?

  1. Terry says:

    “The Rules of Life” will make you much happier about your conundrums … take a look at it on Amazon – read a bit of the sample …

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